Previous experiences

It started in high school. A new friend kept paying for things, and I never stopped him. He wasn't unique.

Over the years, I've met several subs out in the wild. Nearly 100% of the time, the words "sub" and "dom" were never used. The dynamic was simply a natural evolution of our friendship or acquaintance. There was a charm and confidence in me that they sensed. There was no forced bravado. It made them want to satisfy me. And in doing so, it satisfied themselves.

This was even despite (or because of) my interest in pushing that unequal power dynamic. I'd make jokes at their expense, mock them, and tease them with stories about my dates and sex life, knowing they'd daydream about it being them. I'd even make suggestions, which turned into straight up commands. "How far can I push him?" I'd think. Turns out, pretty damn far. I once made a guy wear my piss-soaked underwear on his head while jogging around a public park. And that was a guy I met through mutual friends, not in a kinky space.

When I turned to selling used clothes online (note: I no longer sell used clothes), that's when the findom terminology and more extreme acts came into play. An innocent listing for my shoes drew the attention of some weak men. Two of those men turned into obedient finsubs. And boy, did I push them far.

But all of these dynamics were not only defined by their extremes. Some of my favorite memories include us just chatting. Me sneaking in those little jabs and reminders of the power I hold over him. Him feeling special because I'm talking to him.

At the end of our dynamic, I asked one of the subs, age mid-50s, what made our time appealing to him. "You're what I wanted in high school and will never grow out of," he said. Throughout his life, he looked for the same archetype in the military, in co-workers, in brothers-in-law. "You're the popular guy who everyone admires...which makes your treatment of me so much hotter. I get to be acknowledged by you in way that feels taboo. You can treat me however you want. And submitting financially feels like showing true admiration. I can just throw out any decision making and follow your command. With you, I know my place. It's a forbidden place where I want to permanently escape to, and every time I get to taste it is a rush." All paraphrased, of course.

If any of this appealed to you, come enter that forbidden place. Surrender. Send.