College Update

The senioritis is real. Second to last semester, graduating in the spring. I have 4 classes left to go and I'm exhausted.

I know that I'm almost there, but I'm sick of school work. The month off (I took a summer class) wasn't enough this time. Usually I don't get this way until the last last month of the semester. We're not even a full week in.

Even if this becomes a full time gig, I'm still determined to finish my degree. I didn't sink all this time, money, and effort into it for no reason. I just wish it was something I was more passionate about. But instead I've signed up for middle management.

Middle management is fine. We can't all be artists. The goal is to have a career and enough income to be satisfied with life. But so much of your life is at work and I have a bad habit of letting it take over home life. And with a degree, it'll be more expected of me to mentally take it home. I can't do that again.

Posting online, selling content, part of it feels like an escape. My body can be sexual under my terms. I have the ability to be sexual. Maybe I've just always felt detached from my body.